also...

Originally uploaded by yyellowbird

this picture is just awesome.

I want to say this...

Originally uploaded by yyellowbird

but I don't really want anyone to listen.
If you are one of the very few people who have access to this blog, you may read on, but this post will be ridiculously cheesy. Don't say I didn't warn you...

I'm in love. Yesssssssssssssssss
It's wonderful, and slightly annoying (to be honest).
I'm so excited, but it means a lot of decision-making. If I were still alone, I'd still have to be making lots of decisions, but there would be no need to consider this other person. And still, I am not required to... but ohhhhh I want to.
I'm going to see him this week, and I absolutely cannot wait.
I can't focus on this school work. All I can think of is what it's going to be like to see him again. And, although I know he will love me either way, I can't help but having girly thoughts like "Have I gained weight since I last saw him?" Not because I'm worried he will care too much, but I know that he is a man, and his mind will react to things like that.
I will probably explode when I see him in the airport. I won't know what to do for a second, because the part of me that won't want anyone to look at us will want to be discreet, but the part of me that will be the most excited I've been in a long time will want to scream, run, jump into his arms, hold him, be ridiculous, basically. oh my. I sound like a 14-year-old girl. I really do. But I kind of like that.

Day & Night

Day & Night-pixar
Originally uploaded by whoquis magazine

full of self-doubt
she flounders about
her emotions have ruled her for far too long now

killing the breeze
she breathes on the trees
hoping their light won't always go out

why does she stay that way?
why won't she change?
she asks you the same.

not a hint of distress,
or of loneliness,
i wander carefree through the world, feeling blessed

enjoying the breeze,
the trees breathe on me,
and i never see the lights go out

why do i stay that way?
why won't i change?
don't i see that i
break everything on my way?

when i skip stones
they always hit her eye
when i have fun
it makes the bored kids cry

why does she stay that way?
why won't she change?
she asks you the same.

doubtful truth

Blinded by truth
Originally uploaded by lorrainemd

the age of doubt
crying out loud
not knowing what they cry about
so unsure
let's try one more
pace
toward the face
forever hidden
by my hands
over my eyes
gotta see to believe
even then, it's hard to conceive
that everything you touch
isn't just
an illusion of the mind.
don't you find
that your mind
is too doubtful to trust?
i must be
crazy
to think
i have the right answer
though the evidence points there,
is it chance or
does truth exist
in a way that insists
on existing
the same to all?

put off the games,
let the truth be who He is.

im(perfect)

I am imperfect project
Originally uploaded by Edlondon11

i have a natural honesty;
i think it came with the family.

i reveal my imperfections
far too early on.

i scream them at the top of my lungs
in the faces of those who want to believe my innocence.

and i am waiting for the day,
and hoping it's today,
that a man does not stop treating me like i'm wonderful
for my enormous flaws.

i'm waiting for the day,
and hoping it's today,
that the flaws become the distress of the damsel
instead of the demonizing of her.

because when i fall,
i feel like a little girl.
i need the comfort of a strong arm to sweep me up,
rather than retreat.

please, don't leave just because i'm

im(perfect)

storm by candle light

storm by candle light
Originally uploaded by purpleserenade

the storms pass too quickly,
far too quickly, she cries,
i do not have time to bottle them into a song or a poem,
or even a picture.
you cannot fit thunder into a microphone,
or the feeling of rain on your skin into a bottle,
each storm is special

...my heart is floating in your direction...

Banksy Balloon St John St, Smithfield London
Originally uploaded by Another Partial Success

you're near all i've wished for,
a bit less and more
and all of what i've prayed for,
so stick around to see
if i can be
that to you.

i hope i can keep myself from being who i shouldn't be
for your sake
i want to keep your heart safe
and this is different for me
i don't want it to go away
so stay

yes, it might hurt;
it's likely at best,
so
am i worth the risk?

if you don't let your heart live its life
it will die