friends, more or less

we went from more than friends to less than friends in just

half a moment

we went from locking lips to tectonics in less

than a year

i want to close my ears to all i hear 

cuz you have nothing good to say

i wonder how we figured out

that we couldn't go on this way

Nuevo. Peace?

Blank Sheet of Paper
Originally uploaded by mark78_xp

haphazard peace.

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I'm indecisive. I don't mean that I'm scared
to tell you what
I think. I would tell you, for sure,
if i could only figure it out for myself.

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My hugs are coming back,
the way they used to be.
I cling onto you like I mean it,
even when maybe I don't.
I am desperate
for those looks into closed eyes
or eyes so open that you wondered how they could be
so honest.
I am desperate
for someone
to treasure the love I give.
Maybe if I treasure it,
then you will too...?

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Is this peace?
This feeling of being new again?
I'm not even sure why it's here
I welcome it gleefully, but where is it coming from?
I suppose I know-

I'm trying to refocus-
of course, that's where it's suppose to come from:
You.
Sorry, even when I remember,I somehow forget how to make it all fit.
How to search, how to love honestly,how to trust You,
though I've learned to so many times.
I forget.
But I'm remembering again, I'm coming back.
Please don't forget who I was, when I go again.
I don't want to go again.
Always remember the best of me.
maybe I can stay this once..

the blame.

just posting to share some updates and things :)
Originally uploaded by Chrissie White

you are not to blame
for those hot nights when i came
'cuz i called you with my eyes
to hold me tight

i could never truly say
that i regret that day
but sometimes
i think i might.

chase me down, boy
i want you to long for me
i won't be just a toy
i'll suspend my disbelief

fool

you said that i should come over

i'd be a fool not to go

you said that i should come over

and see your house in the snow

but i came and i went 

not a snowflake could be found

and i don't pay the rent

but still you want me to lie down... with you

you said that i should come over

i'd be a fool not to go

cuz i would be that much closer

to something no one else knows

but i came and i went

not a piece of your truth was found

though i lay in your bed

with nothin on but a frown

you said that i should come over

i'd be a fool not to go

but is it just entertainment?

is it all just a show?

cuz when i came

ya kissed me on the cheek

but when i left 

ya barely looked at me

well i was askin for it

when i said 

"honey, i don't care"

yeah i was askin' for it

when i laid myself right there ... for you

you said that i should come over

i would be a fool to go

baby i want to

but i gotta let go

cuz you turn me into someone i dont wanna be

my ideals seem to melt when you so much as look at me

baby if i come over it'll be 

somethin' new, somethin' sweet, somethin' clean

you are.

only on these days
when death is near
do i remember my love for you
and forget that it's "over"
because that no longer matters
all that matters now is this-
are you okay?

i do not need to kiss you again
but if you need me,
i need to be there.
somehow, 
your voice still means life.
for your life to be gone
would still take a little of mine

and it doesn't matter if you know
that i still love you

because life 
will be gone in just a moment, darling

life 

will be gone, so don't you worry,
hardly
anything will be left

Just who you are.

"Christian" music vs. "Christians"

Though the majority of the population in the United States would call themselves “Christian,” secular music always seems to be far ahead of “Christian” music in listeners. The most obvious answer is that secular music has a more general subject matter, making it easier for Christians to relate to secular music than it is for non-Christians to relate to “Christian” music. “Christian” music often talks only about Jesus, and I suppose secular music often talks about sinful things. People disagree about what is sinful and what isn’t, which allows for a larger audience to listen to secular music that others within Christianity might deem “sinful” for one reason or another. Non-Christians, however, do not debate about whether Jesus is all that most religious music claims Him to be. The more a “Christian” band pushes its own theological ideas through music, the less likely people are to listen. Many people turn off to things they disagree with, but especially within the scope of CCM (Contemporary Christian Music), because it seems so very shallow. In a song, you may not be able to explain all your logical (or otherwise) reasons for your theological beliefs, but what you can do is be creative. Creativity is natural to an impassioned artist, and stale formation of songs is unnatural and obvious. When it comes to music, listeners do not expect to have to try to enjoy themselves: this is supposed to be entertainment after all. You can’t force anyone to believe what you believe; all you can do is be genuinely passionate, share that, and let it be enjoyed. Maybe it will change someone, if they will only listen.