There's Always One

There's Always One
Originally uploaded by nickwheeleroz (on holiday)

music is about many single beings:

God, the creator of the creative

the listener who immediately feels understood
the listener who doesn't get it at first, until it sinks in and changes their perspective
the listener who rediscovers it with new eyes years later
the one who takes a song and replays it as his/her own art
the performer who spills out his/her soul to whoever wants to listen, despite occasional discouragement
the listener who loves and supports it
the listener who realizes he/she has a story to tell too, and tells it for the sake of others and self
the performer/writer who realizes that the most horrible comment or situation cannot offset the encouragement of one person who has developed an everlasting bond with your song through a hard time and/or a beautiful one

Someone anonymously told me a couple of days ago that my songs were no good. I tried hard not to let it discourage me, though the comments were extremely negative, because I've always stuck to the idea that my songs are to change one person, not the world. Today someone else anonymously told me that one of my songs got her through a hard breakup. And that comment is getting me through. Things like that keep me going. and my Lord keeps me going.

give me

the picture i found on flickr wouldn't let me blog it, but here's what it said underneath the pic:

...sage nicht, dass Du geben willst, sondern gib...
Goethe

...dont say you want to give. Just give...
(Goethe)

newest song... haven't decided how i feel about it yet, but here 'tis!

I’ve finally found a love that can almost drown him out of my mind

I’ve finally found someone who knows who I am inside

you might just be the love of my life

but I only have right now to show you why

 

I’m not the kind of girl to try to give a man what he wants

I am just myself, take it or leave it is my thought

but you feel like my last hope for truth

I want to stay happy with you

 

I wanna watch you brush your teeth before you go to bed

I’d love to travel, I’d stay home with you instead

 

so won't you give me

won’t you give me everything I need

won’t you give me

before you leave

 

you gave me all I asked for and so much more

we went down a road I had never been down before

and now I wonder, was it right?

to give up my heart without a fight?

 

I can't take it back now, what I’ve given to you

I just hope you treasure it more than the other men do

I hope that I’m the love of your life

cuz it takes a part of me when we fight

 

don't leave me again and make me cry

no matter what you do, I have to try

 to give you

i will give you everything you need

i will give you

before you leave...

 

you are so amazing

won't you please give yourself to me

though I know I shouldn't take it,

I'm afraid of what I might leave

 

I wish the words you sing were meant from you to me

but they were meant for other ears, I believe

 

but i'll still give you

i'll give you everything you need

 i will give you

before you leave....

  © Sephra Osburn 2009

.puppet.

Inside the pain
Originally uploaded by Tous les noms sont déjà pris... pfff...

too weak to stand alone,
i am your puppet.
i trust you,
do with me what you will.
you've made me who i have come to be.

i know life only by what you have shown me.

then you left me on the side of the road,
broken and scratched
and i hoped someone would come and pick me up,
or you'd take me back
but you never came,
so i had to learn to walk alone.

for the first time
i stood
without help
for the first time
i walked
by myself
and the beauty overwhelmed me

but i was alone.

then i met a puppet master.
amazed at how i stood alone,
he begged me to be his,
to stay with him at his home.
i thought he would treat me with the love i deserved,
i thought he would let me do what i do best-
stand alone.

but i was just a challenge to master
i was just a prize to sit on his shelf
i couldn't stand their laughter
when again i couldn't stand for myself.

the perfect, loving master has come for me.

He is in my arms and legs, 

but i control the strings. 

songs of the morning....

Holkham Dawn
Originally uploaded by . Andrew Dunn .

the perfect songs of the morning
draw me to your side
the hymns of the birds and the wind and the trees
are what keep me alive
and as we lay with our backs in the cushion of the dawn
i close my eyes to the beauty that's been drawn
and listen closely to the perfect songs of the morning

--the path--

Path to Grandma's House
Originally uploaded by Ms Ladyred

.the latest.

not organized, some lyrics:

was it true

when we said i love you

i guess i believed it at the time

was it you

who turned my heart to new

when i thought that it was gonna die

you're perfect but you're not what i want

you're perfect but i can't take this on

i'm not ready for your other plans

i need another perfect man

the things you say

can't turn me away

and i know that you would never lie

things you do

melt me through and through

you always do everything just right

you were almost gone

but i can't be alone

and you are the one who brought me home

we're closer now

than i should have allowed

further along than a child-bearing mom

you're just what i need, but the wrong time and wrong place

you're just what i want without the means to fit in pace

i want you so bad, you've got me in your hands

i have to resist before i fall again

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some words:

im goin down the wrong path

seems that it might be

the closest i can get to the right one

inching to something

i know is wrong for me

but there's not much to pull in the other direction

so dear don't leave me lonely

dear do let me lie in your loving embrace

dear don't deny me of dangerous love,

of damaging dares of darlings in the dark

i'm messed up...

this isn't an attack on anyone, it's just an observation... i can see the possibility of a profiled jerky Christian becoming a trend in some circles. Obviously not an out-and-out jerk, but ya know, the good guy that treats his girlfriend badly, but somehow people think that makes him hott stuff. people showing dominance over God, or just questioning to be "philosophical," a mockery of the lover of truth.

everybody likes "i'm a messed up Christian" rock
it makes you feel like you're not alone,
and you're not
but that doesn't make it okay.

it's not wrong to show your weakness
and please be honest about those scars
but if it becomes a trend to treat God badly in the name of honesty,

it's a lie and i'm out.
i'm gonna rat on you.
i'm a tattle-tale